Okay this might be a little long but I'm not really sure were else to turn. I am so confused, angry and lost I just dont know what to do. I have lost my faith and am trying to find my way back. I want to believe in God so very much but it is so difficult. Some very difficult things have happened in my life for the past three years and I will admit though I was raised in a religious household I never fully believed. Its so confusing one day I will say thank you to god for anything such as for the sky being blue or for letting me get through the day. Then the next day I'm angry at him for the way things are going in my life and I am unwilling to believe there might even be a god. I did pull out my bible yesterday (it was given to me when my husband and I got married). But I am having trouble getting myself to open it and read it. I am so depressed over this situation, How do I start, how do I gain the faith that I read many of you have. How do I begin to truly believe?