What started as great joy this afternoon when I came home from substitute teaching today at about 3:30 p.m. turned into great mourning by about 11 p.m. Wednesday, March 2, 2005. A queen Nubian doe of mine named Rosa, who was finally pregnant after two or three false pregnancies since I have had her, finally had a real pregnancy and was in labor today and this evening. Due to my stupidity and inexperience I lost both beautiful, black bodied with gray and white accented doe kids despite all my efforts and those of two knowledgable goat owning friends. I even gave CPR and mouth to mouth rescusitation, to the best of my ability, to try to save the kids who both arrived breech. Right about now I am questioning the wisdom of trying to keep these animals when I am so stupid that I couldn't do anything for the kids. I have another yearling doe who will be a first time kidder who will be due within a week or two. I just hope I don't have a repeated stupidity attack and let these kids die too. If I sound bitter or very depressed, it is because I am both right now. I am mourning the loss of two wonderful kids.