Hello to all,
Well a few things have happened since the last time i posted a thead.
I got my money back in the mail yesterday. It was my refund for the land i got of ozarkland.com. I was wondering how long it would take them to send it back. Of course i had to leave a message on their phone as well as write a couple emails, but i got my money back. It was a painless experience.
Things are going pretty good work. I took that job promotion, if you want to call it that. It is better, and a bit more money. I have pretty much stop talking about moving at work. I still plan on leaving just dont know when it will be. Once i know for sure then i'll put in my notice. I am in a constant state of training at work. We keep losing employees. So i have to train new people constantly. This becomes a real drag.It also creates alot more work for me. The newbies don't know how to do anything, so i have to take up the slack. Oh well.
My state of mind is better now. In my last thread i was having a bad day. Today is better. I know alot of you suggested that i take myself to the doctor and have myself checked out. Not going to happen. I have no insurance, I have the funds to goto one on my own. I don't think pumping pills into my system is what i need to do. I distrust the medical system, and doctors in general.
I worked during the day yesterday and i got off at 3pm. I walked home as usual. Where i walk at i go behind a big furniture store warehouse. Behind this place is a section of undeveloped land, several acres in size. It is overgrown and is actually very beautiful. As i walked thru this little peice of heaven on my way home i stopped at the creek. A very inviting rock called to me to sit awhile, I did. I sat there watching the cool, clear water. The little stream had an almost musical sound as it meandered by me. I stretched my feet out and took off my hat. A few deep breaths later i was cutting down some saplings. I built myself a small frame (wigwam style). Back to the warehouse i went. I was searching for some plastic sheeting or something similar. I knew there was some about. I had seen it on my way thru. I got what i needed and was back at my little lodge in no time. I covered the wigwam with the plactic and i tried to seal it up pretty tight. As i was finishing up i heard a CRACK. A stick had been busted. I immediately went into a squatting position. I thought maybe one of the locale kids or worse yet one of the roaming druggies was in my territory. I waited several minutes, squatting there looking around, peering into the dense foliage. I could see nothing and i could hear nothing. After several minutes i stood up, and low and behold it was a deer standing just 30 yards distant. When it saw me it bounded away across the stream. This made me smile. After a few moments I gathered some dry firewood. I kindled a fire and went to the creek to gather some small rocks. The fire blazed brillantly. It snapped and crackled from the intense heat that the dry wood gave it. The fire grew hotter and hotter i added more wood. I laid several of the softball sized rocks around and in the fire. I waited for them to heat. I found a couple green forked branches to use to pick up the hot rocks. I sat on the ground and was entertained by the sound of the creek babling and singing its song as well as the pop and hissing from the water steaming of the heating rocks. Once the rocks were heated i quickly rolled and carried them into the wigwam. I then stripped down to my underware and stepped inside. I closed up the door the best i could. I sat the opposite side of the rocks. I dowsed the rocks with water, steam erupted from them. I was engulfed in a cloud of hot steam. I sat there praying, talking with the creator. I asked him for his forgiveness. I ask him to show me what too do. I sat there talking to him out loud. My body was very hot and sweat poured from every square inch of my body. I told the creator everything that was on my mind. I wept. After the rocks had cooled and would not let loose any more steam i got up and went back outside. I solemly walked over to the creek. I walked down into it and plunge my body into the icy cool water. It was refreshing as well as liberating. I went back up onto the bank and got dressed. I put the fire out and went on my way home. I had lots of mixed feeling about what i had just done. I felt completely better after this sweat bath. Some things seem more clear. Some do not. As i walked home everything seemed different. The wind, the song of birds everything. Everything seemed to be in complete harmony with each other, and changed somehow. The air was heavily laddened with the sweet smell of honeysuckle. I smiled as i walked. It was a good day.
I am still looking for some property. I am eagerly searching. I have been looking in places (states) that i had never really considered. I want to know more about certain areas but i will make seperate threads for those questions. I think i may have found a good lead down in Kentucky. My wife is from Kentucky. I have not given up hope. I think when we move out of this place and if we have not yet found a peice of land, we will stay in a campground till we do find something.
I want to again thank all of you. I want to thank you for your concern, your suggestions, and your prayers. I know to some of you that what i type is just a bunch of nonesense., but it really helps me to let some things out sometimes. Even though at times it must be difficult to follow my ramblings. I just want to say thank you.
Be good
Jagger
Well a few things have happened since the last time i posted a thead.
I got my money back in the mail yesterday. It was my refund for the land i got of ozarkland.com. I was wondering how long it would take them to send it back. Of course i had to leave a message on their phone as well as write a couple emails, but i got my money back. It was a painless experience.
Things are going pretty good work. I took that job promotion, if you want to call it that. It is better, and a bit more money. I have pretty much stop talking about moving at work. I still plan on leaving just dont know when it will be. Once i know for sure then i'll put in my notice. I am in a constant state of training at work. We keep losing employees. So i have to train new people constantly. This becomes a real drag.It also creates alot more work for me. The newbies don't know how to do anything, so i have to take up the slack. Oh well.
My state of mind is better now. In my last thread i was having a bad day. Today is better. I know alot of you suggested that i take myself to the doctor and have myself checked out. Not going to happen. I have no insurance, I have the funds to goto one on my own. I don't think pumping pills into my system is what i need to do. I distrust the medical system, and doctors in general.
I worked during the day yesterday and i got off at 3pm. I walked home as usual. Where i walk at i go behind a big furniture store warehouse. Behind this place is a section of undeveloped land, several acres in size. It is overgrown and is actually very beautiful. As i walked thru this little peice of heaven on my way home i stopped at the creek. A very inviting rock called to me to sit awhile, I did. I sat there watching the cool, clear water. The little stream had an almost musical sound as it meandered by me. I stretched my feet out and took off my hat. A few deep breaths later i was cutting down some saplings. I built myself a small frame (wigwam style). Back to the warehouse i went. I was searching for some plastic sheeting or something similar. I knew there was some about. I had seen it on my way thru. I got what i needed and was back at my little lodge in no time. I covered the wigwam with the plactic and i tried to seal it up pretty tight. As i was finishing up i heard a CRACK. A stick had been busted. I immediately went into a squatting position. I thought maybe one of the locale kids or worse yet one of the roaming druggies was in my territory. I waited several minutes, squatting there looking around, peering into the dense foliage. I could see nothing and i could hear nothing. After several minutes i stood up, and low and behold it was a deer standing just 30 yards distant. When it saw me it bounded away across the stream. This made me smile. After a few moments I gathered some dry firewood. I kindled a fire and went to the creek to gather some small rocks. The fire blazed brillantly. It snapped and crackled from the intense heat that the dry wood gave it. The fire grew hotter and hotter i added more wood. I laid several of the softball sized rocks around and in the fire. I waited for them to heat. I found a couple green forked branches to use to pick up the hot rocks. I sat on the ground and was entertained by the sound of the creek babling and singing its song as well as the pop and hissing from the water steaming of the heating rocks. Once the rocks were heated i quickly rolled and carried them into the wigwam. I then stripped down to my underware and stepped inside. I closed up the door the best i could. I sat the opposite side of the rocks. I dowsed the rocks with water, steam erupted from them. I was engulfed in a cloud of hot steam. I sat there praying, talking with the creator. I asked him for his forgiveness. I ask him to show me what too do. I sat there talking to him out loud. My body was very hot and sweat poured from every square inch of my body. I told the creator everything that was on my mind. I wept. After the rocks had cooled and would not let loose any more steam i got up and went back outside. I solemly walked over to the creek. I walked down into it and plunge my body into the icy cool water. It was refreshing as well as liberating. I went back up onto the bank and got dressed. I put the fire out and went on my way home. I had lots of mixed feeling about what i had just done. I felt completely better after this sweat bath. Some things seem more clear. Some do not. As i walked home everything seemed different. The wind, the song of birds everything. Everything seemed to be in complete harmony with each other, and changed somehow. The air was heavily laddened with the sweet smell of honeysuckle. I smiled as i walked. It was a good day.
I am still looking for some property. I am eagerly searching. I have been looking in places (states) that i had never really considered. I want to know more about certain areas but i will make seperate threads for those questions. I think i may have found a good lead down in Kentucky. My wife is from Kentucky. I have not given up hope. I think when we move out of this place and if we have not yet found a peice of land, we will stay in a campground till we do find something.
I want to again thank all of you. I want to thank you for your concern, your suggestions, and your prayers. I know to some of you that what i type is just a bunch of nonesense., but it really helps me to let some things out sometimes. Even though at times it must be difficult to follow my ramblings. I just want to say thank you.
Be good
Jagger
