I know this is kind of boring but I'm getting steadily more depressed about it so by typing it out, it gives me an outlet. At this point, docs are more or less baffled as to why I'm still losing weight and still having trouble eating. Ive had two barium swallows, a manometry, a chest X-ray, an endoscopy, and two rounds of medication (Regland and Procardia, neither of which worked). I have a CT scan tomorrow to rule out weird lung cancers (Pancoast's tumors), and then sometime this week or after Christmas, they want to do a dilation to see if they can weaken the muscles in my upper esophagus enough for me to eat without trouble. I'm still losing weight. My size 12s are getting loose on me now. If THAT doesn't work, they want me to see a bigga-bigga doctor at Virginia Mason in Seattle. How I'll manage that with three kids, I have no idea. I just want them to figure it out and fix the problem so I can move on with my life and find something ELSE to complain about. It's wearing out the hubby too, although he's been fairly stalwart throughout the whole thing. When I told him about the cancer they want to rule out, he finally cracked. He ended up leaving work early and has been relatively stressed ever since. I think secretly he's afraid I"m going to die on him and leave him all alone with three little children to raise. On an up note, the Christmas party pics are up on my website so you can see the party dress: http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/threejane The dress is too big, which is why the sides are so low. In the 3 weeks between receiving the dress and wearing it, I lost another 8 pounds or so. Thanks for listening to me whine.