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The other day I realized, we moved here about 18 months ago from England, and in that time I feel somehow as though I must have aged ten years. I'm worn out, want naps all the time, ache all over frequently.
I don't feel especially "sad" but I do feel stressed somehow. I have palpitations, and I'm discouraged in my job search. I guess being 52 means no one wants you, other than places like wal-mart. I've been trying to avoid going to work in retail or fast food, because what I want is a job with benefits. Otherwise, going to work for minimum wage and no bennies, I may as well stay home. I would have at least a thirty minute drive to work anyway, and when you figure in costs, well, let's just say it's not worth the time and effort.
We moved back here to be closer to my family (parents and grown children) and to live out in the country. Living out here is wonderful, the quiet is something I'd missed in England since we lived in town. We have goats, chickens, dogs, cats, pork in the freezer, home canned goods on the shelves. This is what we wanted to do... so that's not the problem.
I can't figure out what makes me feel like life is so much harder here than it was in England, but whatever it is, it's stressful.
I don't go anywhere much, there's not a lot of activities in this area. I enjoy reading, so I read quite a bit when I'm not busy. My husband is wonderful and undemanding, really. He never complains or gripes at me - or suggests I should "do" whatever. (Far cry from ex-husband!)
I don't think I'm feeling sorry for myself - why should I? I have everything I wanted and I'm thankful and pleased that we have been able to do what we are doing.
Just trying to figure out what is going on - when I say I ache all over sometimes, it's like the onset of the flu, except I'm not sick at all. The aches are not a result of extreme exertion. Headaches are not part of the problem, though lack of energy is. I'm on thyroid medication and have been for years, recently checked and adequate.
My blood pressure is perfect, and I do not have diabetes, easy to know this because my husband does have it, and we have both the blood pressure monitor and the blood sugar apparatus at hand to check that.
Any insight would be appreciated, but do remember we have NO health insurance and I do not feel ill.
I don't feel especially "sad" but I do feel stressed somehow. I have palpitations, and I'm discouraged in my job search. I guess being 52 means no one wants you, other than places like wal-mart. I've been trying to avoid going to work in retail or fast food, because what I want is a job with benefits. Otherwise, going to work for minimum wage and no bennies, I may as well stay home. I would have at least a thirty minute drive to work anyway, and when you figure in costs, well, let's just say it's not worth the time and effort.
We moved back here to be closer to my family (parents and grown children) and to live out in the country. Living out here is wonderful, the quiet is something I'd missed in England since we lived in town. We have goats, chickens, dogs, cats, pork in the freezer, home canned goods on the shelves. This is what we wanted to do... so that's not the problem.
I can't figure out what makes me feel like life is so much harder here than it was in England, but whatever it is, it's stressful.
I don't go anywhere much, there's not a lot of activities in this area. I enjoy reading, so I read quite a bit when I'm not busy. My husband is wonderful and undemanding, really. He never complains or gripes at me - or suggests I should "do" whatever. (Far cry from ex-husband!)
I don't think I'm feeling sorry for myself - why should I? I have everything I wanted and I'm thankful and pleased that we have been able to do what we are doing.
Just trying to figure out what is going on - when I say I ache all over sometimes, it's like the onset of the flu, except I'm not sick at all. The aches are not a result of extreme exertion. Headaches are not part of the problem, though lack of energy is. I'm on thyroid medication and have been for years, recently checked and adequate.
My blood pressure is perfect, and I do not have diabetes, easy to know this because my husband does have it, and we have both the blood pressure monitor and the blood sugar apparatus at hand to check that.
Any insight would be appreciated, but do remember we have NO health insurance and I do not feel ill.