Hello! Some of you may have seen me on the Goats and Cattle forums, or not. I've been having trouble with my weight since I graduated high school. I was 170 throughout high school and very comfortable with my weight and physical fitness. I have sports induced asthma and very weak ankles so running, jogging, etc, are not things I do. However, I live and work on a dairy farm. We use bucket milkers and so that means carrying and dumping buckets of milk. We also pasture our cattle, so when I am working I get a lot of exercise. Exercising isn't my problem. My eating habits are my problem. I am assuming that being on Depo for a year and a half after graduating high school didn't help. But that is not entirely to blame. After graduating I started buying a lot of my own food and it was mostly junk food. I no longer had the stable three round meals a day that I did in high school (I attended a local boarding school). I was no longer doing sports every weekday afternoon either. I loved field hockey, volleyball, soccer, etc. now I don't play sports excpet for sprinting across fields after cows and tackling goats. I do not eat regular meals. On occassion I eat a solid round meal once a day but rarely more than once a day. I snack..constantly. I am an emotional eater and have Bipolar Disorder. I am a Moutain Dew addict (easily drink over 2 liters a day). I can recognize all these factors, I know I need to work on eating real meals, cut out the Mountain Dew, the sweets, the constant snacking, question why I am reaching for the food when I do, and yet, I cannot find the will power to do anything about it, or to stick with it. There is one thing I have noticed though. I lose weight in the winter time, even with the SAD I can safely assume I deal with. I realized the other day it is because I don't snakc as much. If I get up to get food, I lose my body heat and our house is kept quite cool. I also have to work twice as hard with the snow and hauling buckets of water. I am currently at around 210 pounds and have been constant at this weight for about a year now. I want to change but can't figure out where to start. What little easy thing to do first. I tried cutting out the Mountain Dew. At least cutting back and I have at times but it just takes care of so many of my issues I cannot stay away. Anyways, hi, I'm Roseanna. Nope, not my baby. My neice. I don't have children of my own.