Hope you all don't mind my sharing. I really need to make some major life changes. I have just in the last 24 hours realized I have NEVER weighted so much in my life as I do now. :Bawling: I have in the past gained 20 to 40 lbs and dropped it, etc, etc. I'm told the up and down is worse than just staying heavy. I also see a pattern in my life. I truly want to break this pattern. The pattern is this, I leave a bad relationship, lose weight, gain my self esteem back, make great strides in my live, move forward and about 1 to 2 yrs later meet a man, get involved again, things go bad. I get depressed and feeling worthless, and it re starts all over again. I get depressed, I eat. This has happened like 4 times in the last 20 years. I'm ready for it to stop and would like to see what others have tried. I was thinking of joining Curves. I'm calling my doctor tomorrow to discuss my health, weight and depression. (I'm on Zoloft and it use to work but seems the stress is stronger than the drug now, 50 mg's worked then stopped working, went to 100 and it worked and not it doesn't.) :Bawling: Tomorrow I'm drinking water, eating better (less) and going to try to defeat the depression. I have other life changes I need to make but they will include making some hard decisions. I really want this change, has anyone here dealt with a similar situation? Anyone try Curves? Low Carb eating? Losing weight isn't just about eating less and exercising more, it seems to be about major life changes in thinking and lifestyle.