I know this is predominately a 'home school' board....and I was a homeschooling mom......but now, I am a college student, and I am lost. Drowning, and ready to quit. And it's only been 3 weeks. My communications and intro to college classes are a dream. Easy. My Math (lowest level) and my English (somehow I tested college level) are killing me. I cannot drop them, it's too late, I will lose my financial aid, and my grant. For the math class, I am fine, when I am in the room, most of the time. I was doing Scientific Notation like a boss.....until I got home and tried to do my home work. My brain went blank, and I forgot how to use my calculator. When I was in class Tuesday, I didn't understand what he was doing. No, I can't ask questions.....I am terrified of looking stupid (or should I say confirming to everyone in the room, I am stupid!:hrm By the time I got out of there, came home for an hour and turned around and went to work.....I completely forget every thing he said. Everything. For the english class. Again. Lost. I do not have basic skills. Maybe 3-4th grade level? That's it. Everything is done on a computer. I don't know how to do anything on a PC, so I brought my mac, then we did something in class that the PC could do but I couldn't figure out how to get my mac to do it. My brain got stuck. I could NOT move to the next task, because my brain was stuck in "how do I make the Mac do this" mode. My brain locks up in that class. He's teaching, and he's good.......but my brain stops. I will be finishing what he has asked us to do, and when I look up, he has told us to do two more things.....and I missed them. If I go home and go through the slides of that days class, one by one, slowly, I can recall about 75% of what he said, look at my notes, then I can do what he has asked. Unfortunately he wants it done, in class, and turned in. I was on the verge of tears the whole way home. I cried myself to sleep last night. I have dyslexia, and I am telling NO ONE, I do not want a label. I am so, uneducated. And I am terrified of exposing that in a class room (REAL BAD childhood memories of school) I am overwhelmed. I have to finish, I HAVE to get at LEAST a C in math, or I have to take it again. I so badly wanted to be on the deans list.... I just want my old life back. and that will never be, and it makes me really really angry. I went to a tutor for the English class last week, and she helped a little bit, but it's over an hour away from my home, and I have a work schedule I have to adhere too..... If you have any tips / pointers/ ideas, I sure would love to hear them.