I am wondering if the condition SAD can effect you in the Summer as well as in the Winter. Here is the situation~I am one of those people who prefer to be outside as much as possible. I feel my best on a bright, sunny day when I am doing something outside but I can't stand to be inside for very long. My DH and I are pretty much staying here while caring for my 90 yr old FIL. He lives in the city on a teeny little lot barely bigger than his house. He has his house all closed up tight. Very stuffy in here. He has the windows with the miniblinds all closed, window darkening shades pulled down over them then he taped the edges of the shades so no light gets in~and so no one can look in at him. Even during the day it is gloomy and dark in here. He has a piece of paper taped over the bathroom window then the shade taped shut. And he hates for the lights to be turned on! If my DH is not here for one reason or other I sit in the dark all day long with no light on because FIL will just turn it off on me. Says I am going to burn down the house by keeping a light on then he turns it off. It is now 9:45 am on Memorial Day and I can't even see the numbers on the calendar. To type I use the light from the moniter. He complains about the computer and would turn it off as well if he knew how but DH told him to leave it alone. The rest we can talk about until we are blue in the face but it does no good, he is very set in his ways. I am very, very depressed, feel in a good mood only when I am away from here. We go home each day and I can relax there, sit in the shady but bright yard and let myself relax for awhile. I cry everytime we have to leave to come back here to the "dungeon". The state social workers told me that I am responsible for caring for FIL because there is no one else. He needs 24/7 watching and they do not want him left alone. He is ok alone, doesn't do anything dangerous to himself. Doesn't get lost or anything. My husband is sick and goes to the hospital for treatments, most of the time I am supposed to go with him and I do. But when he has to stay that means I am here all day long, in the dark and only get to leave for the hour or so that it takes to go home and care for our animals.
When DH was in the hospital and I had gone home to do the animals the social worker came here, quizzed FIL then took a check from him, brought him a meal and wanted to talk to me. My Mom and I went to their office and complained after I emailed them a nastygram about them taking a check from him. That is when they told me that I have to be here 24/7~no way! When DH got out of the hospital we went and talked to them again and because of DH's illness they say I am the one who is responsible for staying with FIL. Is this legal? I am only his daughter-in-law. Can they make me stay here if something happens to DH? They said I could get into big trouble if I left and something happened to FIL.
Anyway, because of having to sit here in the dark for most, if not all day I find myself getting very depressed. When I get outside either at home or away from here I find that I feel much better. Almost euphoric.
When DH was in the hospital and I had gone home to do the animals the social worker came here, quizzed FIL then took a check from him, brought him a meal and wanted to talk to me. My Mom and I went to their office and complained after I emailed them a nastygram about them taking a check from him. That is when they told me that I have to be here 24/7~no way! When DH got out of the hospital we went and talked to them again and because of DH's illness they say I am the one who is responsible for staying with FIL. Is this legal? I am only his daughter-in-law. Can they make me stay here if something happens to DH? They said I could get into big trouble if I left and something happened to FIL.
Anyway, because of having to sit here in the dark for most, if not all day I find myself getting very depressed. When I get outside either at home or away from here I find that I feel much better. Almost euphoric.