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09/01/12, 09:35 PM
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Ages Ago Acres Nubians
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Join Date: Apr 2004
Location: MO Ozarks
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well, I'm still alive!!!
this time it's actually ME (yarrow/susie) and not my daughter Jessie, doing an update... as most of you know by now (if you read the earlier thread that Alice started)... I have had, shall we say.... a bit of an *adventure* this week... Monday afternoon Jessie, baby Zade & I went into town to the post office (had drawn blood on the four Amberwood nubians that joined us this year (the twin bucks McFly & Mr. Wrinkles that I bottled and recently two adult does, that came here to live out their lives...when Joan had to retire from goats).. also drew blood on Jenna grand-doe (Kansas) I got from Emily.... any how.. got to the post office (feeling perfectly normal).. I was addressing my mailing slip when I suddenly couldn't remember my box address... I was just blank.. ((come to find out I was having a cerebral hemorrhage!!!)).....(((I guess we are true die hard goat gals, even in the middle of my bleed.. I was still trying to decide if I need to buy insurance for the blood!!! (I have ZERO memory of that).. my daughter bless her heart went ahead, labeled & paid for the package.. those G6S tests must get mailed.. no matter what... oh, ALL came back G6S NORMAL....
I don't remember a lot of what happened in the post office.. I had the blankness on the address, a feeling of falling downward/into myself.. I could hear myself saying over & over in a sing-song voice that "I'm alright, everything will be fine.. I'm alright" (Jess tells me I had a blank look in my eyes, but a relaxed almost happy look on my face and that I was saying the "alrights" out loud... as she became more frightened she yelled out "MOM!!!" and shook me.. (the only image I have thru out the entire ordeal was on clear picture of Jessie, backlite with a look of terror on her face... I recall asking if she was alright??? again, she says I asked that outloud.... I then began to fall deeper into myself, everything felt as if it were slowing down.. the image of Jessie's frightened face appeared to me again.. suddenly I got mad.. I began to curse at myself and tell myself .. Oh no you don't !!!! Not Now, Not this way!!! (just this evening Jess mentioned that I got an angry look on my face and began to slap myself on the cheek).. right after that I began to seize... BUT even then.. I stayed on my feet, unassisted (expect for leaning slightly on the counter)... I actually felt the pain when I bit my tongue ---- that's what brought me back into myself...
(((by then the postal ladies had called for an ambulance.. I am not one to go in an ambulance, having NEVER ridden in one before... I actually scared myself worse when I realized I NEEDED to go to the hospital (I was thinking I was having a stroke!!! -turns out this was the opposite.. instead of no blood flow.. I had WAY to much LOL)...... I knew if it was a stroke I had a window of time to get the clot busting drug. ((from all the medical workup.. other then the abnomal blood vessel(s).. AVM or Cavernous Angioma (MRI should tell us which it is)... I as healthy as a horse (a fat horse  ).. my blood pressure (even with all this stress) is running 136/74 .. blood sugar is excellent.. no sign of heart issues.. all lab work came back completely completely normal (and here I've always tried to be at least a little abnormal!!!).... I spent several days in the ICU (will admit to being totally freaked out when they willed me thru those doors!!!!)... we are so far out from the hospital (40 plus miles on winding curvy deer-filled roads) hubby (who dumped his load and headed here from Houston as fast as he could) and I are staying in a motel, about 3 minutes from the hospital... we are back home tonight.. not only did this yaya need some grandbaby time, but I've missed the goats & the dogs!! (also want to dye my hair BEFORE they do surgery... I am going to find out how much has to leave and my loving husband -instead of a stranger- will be the one shaving it off for me.. (that, along with my total refusal to put on a hospital gown, until surgery.. well those two things are about the only thing I get to control in this whole scary adventure).... I also wanted to come home tonight and get online, so I could personally thank you all the the overwhelming love & support I have gotten from so many of you... it humbles me.... I feel an odd sense of calm & peace.. I really think I'm going to be alright .. I was in the right place, with the right people when this happened.. as the ER doc told me... I won the big battle, I survived the bleed (and thankfully without a single lingering effect,.. I feel as whole and healthy as when I went thru the Post Office doors).. I know I have a time bomb in my head right now... but I also feel surrounded by the love....
please keep my daughter Jessie, in your thoughts and prayers.. this is so hard on her.. we are best friends.. she so wants to be at my side, but her place is here being a new mommy (her milk supply is being affected by the stress and worry) she is keeping the goats well fed and looked after.. life on the farm, slows down for no one & no thing...
susie, mo ozarks
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09/01/12, 09:43 PM
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Join Date: Jun 2011
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Oh you have no idea how happy I am to see you on here. I am crying my eyes out as I read that. I am happy you are a fighter and please send your dear daughter a hug for me. I could not picture going through that. My mom is my world. We will keep praying hard for you. Let me know if we can do anything for you guys.
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09/01/12, 09:48 PM
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Oh Susie! ~Great, huge, warm, tight hugs!!~ Oh, I am SO glad you thought to update us with all that is going on!
Thank goodness that the prognosis looks so good, and of course I'll meditate for Jessie! (My own daughter's name is Jessica...neat coincidence!)
Go love on your goats and dogs and grandbaby and get WELL! *Really* well!
Love and hugs!
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09/02/12, 12:37 AM
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My husband had a "seizure" type episode this summer. Laying in bed in the morning he had not felt well the evening before but nothing to worry about. He woke up talked for about 5 minutes then laid back down within 15 minutes he was seizing. Let me tell you your daughter probably got High blood pressure from witnessing it. My husband did not remember anything and was weirded out by me yelling at him and rubbing his sterum when he came to. Doctors could not figure out what caused it.
Last edited by luvzmybabz; 09/02/12 at 12:59 AM.
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09/02/12, 12:44 AM
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Susie it is so good to see you posting again! Your whole family has been in my prayers. DON'T SCARE US LIKE THAT AGAIN!  . That being said and out of the way, keep your chin up and know we are ALL right behind you if not in person than in spirit cheering you the whole way through .
Justine
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09/02/12, 01:18 AM
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Susie, glad that you are able to sit down and share!! You will be in our thoughts!
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09/02/12, 04:26 AM
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Katie
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You & Your family are still in my prayers Susie! Everything is going to be just fine though with the surgery & you'll be back home with the family, goats & dogs in No Time at all!!
I'm so glad you got to come home before the surgery even if it was just for a little while & glad your hubby can be there with you.
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09/02/12, 05:52 AM
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An Ozark Engineer
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SO GOOD to see you back among us, and posting again! Please, don't repeat the Post Office episode, EVER AGAIN! Be well.
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09/02/12, 07:10 AM
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Yaaaay! You are fantastic, Susie! Lots of Reiki headed your way (and for Jessie and the rest of the family). Please keep us posted.
Sue
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09/02/12, 07:32 AM
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Hang in there, Susie/Yarrow/YaYa! Love you!
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09/02/12, 08:09 AM
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I'm so glad to hear that you're doing so well! I'm sure everything will go perfectly during the surgery. You and your daughter are both amazing - I'm not sure I could have kept it together like Jessie has!
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Nubians, Boers, Jersey cows and a whole lotta ticks
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09/02/12, 08:36 AM
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It was so wonderful to see you posting again!!!!!!!!!!! Take good care of yourself and know that we are all here for you.
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09/02/12, 08:40 AM
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Very good to hear from you, glad you got to go home for a bit before surgery. I just read the first thread, haven't had much time for computers lately. Lot of positive thoughts and energy headed your way!
-Sonja
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09/02/12, 09:13 AM
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I will be thinking of you and praying for your family. (((HUGS)))
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09/02/12, 09:22 AM
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Susie, I am here cheering you on! Your poor daughter, how stressful. Family always has the hardest job because they are helpless. You will be strong and do well. I will do my part and say many prayers for you and your family.
Please let us know when surgery is scheduled.
You are one tough lady.
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09/02/12, 10:26 AM
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So glad things are going to be ok. Hugs to you and poor daughter! What an adventure! I'm glad your feeling better, you're in my thoughts. Big hugs!
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09/02/12, 10:34 AM
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SO GOOD TO SEE YOU BACK!!!!! 
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Ozark Jewels
Nubians & Lamanchas
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09/02/12, 11:37 AM
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What an episode! Praying for you & family.
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09/02/12, 11:56 AM
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So good to hear from you!
Sending all of you my good wishes.
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09/02/12, 12:13 PM
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Yay! Good to see you are posting Yarrow! We want you to get better real quick  Sending lots of prayers and hugs!
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