Growing my food saved my life!

myheaven · #41 07/20/12, 12:39 PM

Dr. Wants me back in at 2. Pm today. More blood work and make sure my bleeding is still under control. I hope no one pushes too hard on my belly! Im so sore. I know They will. My community of friends and neighbors are willing to take our children for as long as we want. Most want to get home and check on me. I'm glad I live where I do. I have the greatest friends.

homebody · #42 07/20/12, 01:11 PM

I'm so sorry for your loss, praying for you and your dh.

mommathea · #43 07/20/12, 01:57 PM

I'd caution keeping your children away too much. They are hurting and grieving also and sometimes as hard as it is, they need their mommy and daddy.
Continued prayers for you.

myheaven · #44 07/20/12, 07:31 PM

Back from the dr. She said " you are the toughest person I know. Anyone else or anyone of my other patients would have died. You are the only one I know That can almost bleed to death walk into my office the next day and smile at me."
She asked me if i realize how bad of shape I'm in. I told her I do. I told her I know how close I came. And I will be good and follow dr. Orders. I'm on minimum 3 weeks of strict bed rest. No lifting no exerting myself in any manner. I can't even load or unload the dishwasher. All the plans we had for vacation are now canceled. I get to lay in bed. So time to be like a queen And have everyone wait on me
My children are at home snuggling me. We are all in this recovery together.
Thank you everyone for the kind thoughts and prayers. I fully believe in God Jesus and heaven. I have complete peace.

mamaof3peas · #45 07/20/12, 07:51 PM

So so sorry, I have 3 little ones waiting on me as well, grow tree is great idea

we did a grow garden around our tree

oldmania · #46 07/20/12, 08:01 PM

Many people don't understand the depth of a loss such as this, particularly to the father. We have experienced two such losses. Many years have passed but the loss is still felt. My prayers are with you and your family. Love one another.

backwoods · #47 07/20/12, 10:13 PM

Prayers for your family and so sorry for your loss. Take care of one another.

Ohio dreamer · #48 07/20/12, 10:16 PM

HUGS! I too have been there, although I wasn't in jeopardy of losing my life (I think). Give your DH time to grasp he almost lost you. He will see it as his fault, at least for a short time, as he was the one that "got you preg." It's likely the first time he's had to consider how hard it would to go on without you.

Snuggle your kids, appreciate your husband and know there is an "army of homesteaders" praying for your family.

myheaven · #49 07/21/12, 12:58 AM

Back in the hospital. Just out of sergery. Lost a bunch more blood. Had retained placenta. Rbc are still high. Much Lower then when it all started but no transfusion Still Everything went well. Should be back on my feet sooner now.

shanzone2001 · #50 07/21/12, 01:04 AM

I am so sorry for the loss of your baby....sending you big hugs!

mabeane · #51 07/21/12, 04:58 AM

Oh my dear, I am so sorry. I am praying for you and your family.

myheaven · #52 07/21/12, 12:40 PM

Well I went from A 12.3 hemagloben to an 8. Waiting to see if my rbc went lower. I have no color left in me. My head hurts from the spinal. I crashed on the table but they got me back. My blood pressure has been super low. If I start hemoraging one more time. I'm gone. I shouldn't do it again. But yet I like to break the rules. So I sit and wait.

Danaus29 · #53 07/21/12, 12:54 PM

You have my continued prayers for your healing.

Cliff · #54 07/21/12, 12:54 PM

Have they offered you blood?

myheaven · #55 07/21/12, 01:47 PM

My hemagloben and hemocrti went lower. Could be the 5 bags of fluids. They are discussing what the next step is with the medical team.

ChristieAcres · #56 07/21/12, 02:14 PM

myheaven, I just read this thread, and I am praying for you right now! I am praying for your healing in all ways, and our Lord encircling you with his love and comfort. Only he knows the depths of your sorrow, feelings of loss, and your ongoing struggle to survive. Can your family get in there to give blood?

Coloneldad5 · #57 07/21/12, 03:32 PM

I too am sorry to hear of your loss, take comfort (as you already know) in that your son is waiting for you to eventually (hopefully not until many years from now) join him and the others.

Take care and get better, don't let the grieving overwhelm you right now you can always work through that later but right now it sounds as if you need to heal first. I hope I'm not sounding insensitive (I am after all a soldier) but there are times when grieving has to wait and we have to complete the mission at hand which in your case is to get better. Grieving does put a strain on you and will hamper your recovery. Get better yourself first and then you will have ample opportunity to grieve properly. Recognize that your son is in God's hands and let that suffice for now. In a few weeks when you are healed you can grieve the lost memories (I do believe that God will more than make them up to you at a later time though).

Good luck and GET BETTER!! (oops, sorry to yell, please tell your nurse to notget mad at me.

myheaven · #58 07/21/12, 04:02 PM

No blood transfusion. I had to get up and exert myself to make sure I wouldn't bleed to death the second I got home. I won't lie it has me nervous as ever to go home. I almost didnt make it back to the hospital. They were able to clean me out. They feel confident I wont bleed out again. But knowing I just dropped from a 12 to a 7 umm I can't drop father. Dh is out getting me dark chocolate. Can you believe being prescribed dark chocolate yeah! Eat a chocolate bar a day yes I can do that. I'm not taking my bands off this time. Seems to be bad luck! Lol. Have friends bringing me leafy greens and my m-I-l is going to come out and make me liver and onions! I can't wait! I have organic grass Fed liver so it's actually healthy.

ChristieAcres · #59 07/21/12, 04:14 PM

I'd be nervous, too. When I bore my DD, 24 years ago, I lost a lot of blood, but wasn't given a transfusion (lost 20#S the day I had her...). I went into shock and that extended my recovery room time. It was an emergency Caesarean Section. Afterward, I was sooooo grateful as the blood supply was tainted with HIV...

That is great news, largely, now try real hard to encircle yourself with the love of your family and friends, concentrate on that, and getting better. But only you know what brings you comfort, so envelop yourself in it (dark chocolate, YUM). The liver, not so much, LOL, but you just celebrate every single bite!

Jan in CO · #60 07/21/12, 10:13 PM

I'm so sorry for the loss of your little boy. Been there, twice myself. I love the idea of a life tree. May that help you, your husband and children heal. Rest all you can, and our prayers will be with you.