Life Changes...

Fair Light · #1 09/25/12, 08:49 AM

For about a year now I have been keeping a 98 yr old woman at her home...she has indeed declined especially in the last 3-4 months. Anyway...the family decided to put her in a nursing home yesterday. I was there 5...24 hr shifts a week which is a lot I know...but the time there was not really demanding....she was always pleasant and the family is great...ANYWAY....this means that I am now "unemployed"...which stinks...I will admit that I had become rather weary of the job....I missed being home, doing things with my family and doing my homesteading things....They did give us very generous severence pay and I am grateful for that....but I find my self rather lost this morning...LOL...I do have chemo scheduled in October and was planning on taking time off for that...maybe there is a "silver lining" to this cloud...but right at this moment I don't see it....I knew this job would end at some point in time...but I just didn't see the end coming this week with no notice...sorry...I just feel like rambling..

Sparkie · #2 09/25/12, 09:02 AM

Sorry

Those kinds of changes are hard.

sandsuncritters · #3 09/25/12, 09:07 AM

Fair Light, you are indeed a Giver. You now have received a gift in the form of severance pay to see you through your upcoming chemo, and time to rest and take care of yourself and strengthen your mind and body for what is to come.

Those of us who have cared for others at home know the empty feeling you are experiencing this morning. It is normal. Use this time to love on your family, make household and pantry arrangements to help you when you undergo your own treatments, and settle your mind and heart.

Praying for you during this transition.

In His love
Mich

Use Less · #4 09/25/12, 09:51 AM

Time to take care of yourself. Their decision comes timely for you.

Classof66 · #5 09/25/12, 11:12 AM

I'm sure it's like losing a member of the family, along with a huge life change. I bet you are a wonderful caregiver too. Enjoy the beautiful fall weather and pamper your self awhile.

Suzyq2u · #6 09/25/12, 03:16 PM

I bet that is hard, hang in there. Maybe go visit her one day

starjj · #7 09/25/12, 06:22 PM

I was just thinking about you on the way to my job this morning. Sorry about short notice you got. Take some time for YOU because you deserve it. Now maybe we can do that lunch we keep talking about.

pattycake · #8 09/25/12, 07:20 PM

Chemo is a big life change in itself. Perhaps this is all in your best interest as you need to devote healing time for yourself. Once you are well there will be other home nursing jobs for you. I have a feeling you are very good at this. God Bless.

Fair Light · #9 09/25/12, 07:34 PM

Thanks for all the love and support....it really means a lot....I just got up this morning feeling really "bummed out"....Today was the first day that I don't have a job to go to...I had planned on taking a little time off for the chemo treatments....but not that long...I am grateful for the severence pay...I am nervous about not having any actual income at the moment...Need I say I have really tightened my belt financially....effective imediately!!!!...I am really glad that I have been stocking my pantry...and I have some savings...it's just scarey not knowing when I'll have income again...I know I have to trust the Lord for he is my source...but it's still scarey...LOL...

And yes Starjj....we have to do lunch...LOL

Tirzah · #10 09/25/12, 09:05 PM

Fair Light,

I'm sorry to hear about your job. What a blessing you have been to that family! And how wonderful that you were given severance pay.

I can't help but think that the timing is good, especially with chemo coming up for you. NOW you can spend some quality time for you and with your family. I am praying for the Lord's provision for you and for everything to go well with your chemo.

Grandmotherbear · #11 09/26/12, 06:22 AM

Count me amongst those who feel there are no coincidences in life. This was a timely gift to you so you may now, smell the roses as it were, instead of always digging and delving.
My father and my MIL were both surprized that they needed more rest and couldn't accomplish much during their chemo. I think it may be like new mothers-to-be planning on being able to accomplish a lot of things when the baby comes. Then reality intervenes!
True, there are instances where people do not lose energy during chemo, Barbara Pariente, ESQ, the former Chief Justice of the FL supreme court, was one of those- she used her chemo infusion time to read briefs. But then, she had a housekeeper, and she was one of those superwomen who give birth on Thursday and were back to work on Monday (Read her story in GFB's Bar news) She also said she now realized that she placed extreme demands on herself and sorta wished she had been able to relax and say "I am taking time for me". Not that she regretted anything - or not very much- but she realized that she had been very demanding of herself and wished she had treated herself more like she treated one of her friends.
It's a blessing to you, that you had a good job, and that you got good severance pay. The Lord will provide- maybe not what you wanted or expected, but, as He promised me once, it will be all right.

Fair Light · #12 09/26/12, 08:23 AM

I have a long history of being very demanding on myself....I used to think that was an atttribute....LOL....I am concerned about the chemo...actually about the whole cancer diagnosis itself....but my labs looks good so I have hope. I have spent my entire life caring for others..it's hard to let that go..I acutally spent the day yesterday doing not much of anything...until about 3pm...then I cleaned out a closet...LOL...