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06/21/07, 11:10 PM
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Join Date: Nov 2002
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Feeling sorry for myself
I'm just out of hospital again - the third time this year, and more visits likely soon. This latest visit is for something completely new and different and is potentially fatal. I'm taking so many pills in a day I rattle. I am unable to do anything - even having a shower is a major operation. I'm so weak, and I have the wobbles and shakes which I'm told will stay with me for many weeks at least.
I know exactly how it feels to be 100. Everything in slow motion, fumbles, eyes don't work properly, information filters in and out slowly, I shuffle around using the walls for support, I spill things over myself, can't see properly. I'm getting Meals on Wheels and home help to keep me going. I live alone and it's hard to be sick and alone. My son is thousands of miles away. My blood must be worth bottling, because they've taken truckloads of it from me!
All I can say is thank goodness I'm not in pain. Which must mean the nerves are dead, because everything else is functioning - even if faultily!
How would you feel if you were a woman and were put into a hospital room with a man (or men)? I was very ill when admitted (after a race in an ambulance and 10 hours in emergency) but I kicked up an almighty stink about that. I couldn't shout (my voice is almost gone - part of the condition), but I sure made my views on that issue very clear! And was moved to an all-woman room. I am a public patient (costs paid by govt.) but I think I still deserve some privacy and dignity in hospital.
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06/21/07, 11:25 PM
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I think I would have been upset by that, too. Especially considering that dr's and nurses don't always have patient modesty in mind when performing their duties. I once had a spinal tap and was so dopey on morphine, laying on my side with my knees pulled up waiting for the Dr. to get the spinal tap kit together and the back of my gown wide open, rear end and part of my privates fully exposed for all to see who passed by the open curtain of my cubicle in the e.r.  Finally mustered up enough strength to cover myself. I think I'd be a little hot about it too if I was put in a room with a man.
I do hope and will pray that your health recovers soon, and that you feel better soon. Just go slowly and take your time, and take care of yourself.
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06/21/07, 11:50 PM
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I pray that you recover. Do you absolutely need all the meds they ahve you on? Before my father passed, they had him on 13 pills. My mother asked what they were all for. SOme were for symptoms that he didn't have. After that, they cut him down to 5 pills. He started feeling much better.
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06/22/07, 07:33 AM
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Goodness, I can't imagine how strong you must be=Being so sick and on your on! May you be blessed with a speedy recovery.. Prayers for you QB
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06/22/07, 08:15 AM
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Thoughts & prayers going your way...
I agree w/the pill situation-find out what each one is for & make sure you REALLY need each one. Probably you do, but docs have a pattern that they follow & somtimes it gets out of hand.
My DM was on too many drugs (IMHO) after a heart procedure & she reacted badly to some of them
Patty
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06/22/07, 11:38 AM
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Praying that you have a quick recovery.
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06/22/07, 11:55 AM
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Tell that son of yours to get his rear over there and take care of you.  That is his job! He can move where you are or take you home with him. Or if the situation is such that he can't come, he can hire a nurse to take care of you.
"A warm place" would freeze over before I'd let my mom or dad go through that alone!
Hope you get to feeling better!!!
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06/22/07, 05:29 PM
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I really do need all the pills I'm taking. They are keeping me alive and repairing damage caused by an organ that went haywire and tried to kill me. It affected other organs as well. The dosages are very high at present but are likely to be reduced as my condition improves, but this could take some time. The hospital provided me with a list of the drugs, what they're for, dosages, how and when to take them etc, and of course the consultant has been very informative and explained everything in detail including possible side-effects etc. In Australia, this is a legal requirement.
I don't expect my son to come to me, or to take me to his place. It's too far for one thing, and for another he's only just started a new job with high responsibility and long hours. He's not in a position to be able to afford home nursing, and it's not really needed anyway. He has only a small one-bedroom flat, so I wouldn't fit and I don't want to go there. I can get by with the help the govt is providing. Mind you, it isn't easy, but there are many who are worse off. You stay at home and fend for yourself as best you can, or you get put into a nursing home and that's the last thing I want, thank you!
I've lived alone for many years, and I'm accustomed to it. It is a bit scary when I'm sick, but there's nothing I can do about it so I don't worry too much about it. This is my lot and I'm stuck with it. I have not asked my friends to help, except one. There's really not much anybody can do anyway.
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06/22/07, 06:42 PM
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May the angels watch over you and help you heal.
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06/22/07, 06:50 PM
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Culpepper, my favorite little recipe writer and sharer, I'm so sorry to hear you are so sick. I'll keep you in my prayers. I know what it is like to be ill and alone and so just remember there are many of us that will think kind thoughts for you and say prayers about you. Take care, God Bless, ~Feather
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06/22/07, 06:55 PM
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Blessings to you. May you heal soon. I know that it is daunting going through a major illness like this. I am in the throws of an autoimmune disorder that is taking more out of me than I thought I had to give. You sound like you have your mind together and are aware of the consequences/help from the meds. Its hard to be on so much but I too need the bunches of meds - they keep me alive. Not everyone understands. Keep your strength and live by the thought that "if this is the worst thing to happen to me today then I am doing good".
Prayers to you, Laurie
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06/22/07, 09:04 PM
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Blessings and good vibes coming from us also. We have a couple of mates who live in Rockhampton, and we've asked them to pray for you also.
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06/23/07, 12:17 AM
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I'll keep you in my prayers also!!! 
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06/23/07, 08:00 AM
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Take care of yourself, sorry you're sick.
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06/24/07, 06:57 AM
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I hope you feel better soon. You will be in my prayers.
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06/24/07, 07:10 AM
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All the best culpepper - I will be sending you all the positive stuff i can muster
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06/24/07, 07:41 AM
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Tough situation, Culpepper, and you will be in my prayers, too. Take care of yourself, do what the docs say, and get that friend over when you need them. That's what friends are for. Think what you would do for your friends, and don't be shy about asking for help from them. What goes around, comes around, and you will have a turn to repay them. Rest! Jan in Co
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