It's still not going well.
I really think tonight for the first time I am way out of my league.
Ms Moo does not want them on her and bless their little hearts, they take a beating with her back legs. I've tried everything I can think of; I even managed to drill holes in the smallest, thickest dog collars I could find, wrapped them around her ankles and attached a chain to it to hobble her. It didn't work-I couldn't get close enough to get the slack up and her stance was too wide.
I try to get them to her 2x a day but I have to convince her to come into the barn, then I have to get her into the milking area, then I sit by her head and rub her face (she is tied around the neck with a slip knot to a t-post) while she eats. I hate giving her so much grain so I bought some alfalfa bales and she likes them okay but really wants the sweet feed.
She does not let me milk her. When I reach for her teats while the calves are on her she swats me away with her hind leg. Poor SO was out there tonight standing on a cinder block on one leg with the other foot tight up against her hind hock-up high and that helped keep her from kicking.
I'm worried sick but have no idea what to do. It would break my heart to get rid of her but I don't want her to be sick. SO said to go ahead and spend the money on a milk machine to get her milked out but good lord those things are expensive! And I want to milk her by hand. That's what this is all about for me.
So I've done all I can think to do, even cried and begged the vet for something to take the edge off her nerves and he says no. The guy who sold me one of the calves came out to help and brought a friend and all that was well and good while one tailed her and the other tied her to a post. But the calves can't empty her twice a day and I can't tail her and milk her, too.
I've had both my neighbor and the guy who sold me the calf offer to buy her. I tears me to pieces to think about it and I don't want her to just be some dairy cow stuck in a pen on mud all day long and unloved and no grass in sight. I just can't seem to do right by her. They say I shouldn't be "so nice" - but I don't see any need to not treat her well.
Sorry to sound so whiney. I hate to fail and this is pretty upsetting.